For me.

Hello everyone! Welcome to my substack.

Why am I here?

I have so many ideas, that sometimes I feel like my head will explode. But in good way. I am always thinking, reminiscing, replaying things in my head, thinking about what I want to do, and thinking about exactly how I will do it, or better said, would like to do it, but then I dont execute, I dont do. Everything is just forever stuck in my head, my ideas are birds in a golden cage, and at some point, I need to decide if I want to set them free. I guess setting them free, will also set me free.

So what am I scared of? What is holding me back?

The two main places in my life where this fear is fostering, where this fear is holding me back, is in my personal projects, and my voice. Speaking my truth. Letting the people around me, really know how I feel. Sometimes it takes so much effort, and mental courage to say something, I play with the idea of telling someone something for days, weeks, I go back and forth with it. Whenever I am with them, I think, ok now is the time, now I will tell them how I feel. Then after what feels like a lifetime, I say it. And nothing happens, everything is ok, I feel lighter, better, but I also realize, that I made it difficult for myself, when in the end, it is actually… easy. Speaking is easy…

I am still trying to figure out where my fear of speaking my truth comes from. Where my fear of starting my own project comes from. Why is everything so clear in my head, but when I want to move, speak, or just take action I cant.

So this year, I promised myself 2 things. To take baby steps towards both; towards myself: in speaking, using my “voice”; and, towards my personal projects. So this is my baby step. This is me speaking my truth, putting myself out there. Or better said, out here.

So Susan, this one is for you. This is my one thing, my small thing, the baby step. This is it.

Welcome.